It's really easy to say you "want" to do something. It's easy to tell people you are "trying".

Except in doing so, you give yourself the out of not following through on what you're talking about.

Don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with wanting or trying to do new things. I highly encourage you to do that! It's when those phrases start taking over that it starts becoming a problem. 

I've noticed that when I am afraid of committing I curve away from my goals. It's become a dance of sorts. Approach dream; sashay to the left. See the job I want; twirl to the right. I've become very adept at this kind of choreography. I'm not bragging. This has been a hindrance in my life and it's kept me from being able to grow and evolve into a better version of me.

This is letting fear write my story and I'm through letting it lead me towards a downer ending.

I just finished filming my first short film; written, produced, and starred in by an ambitious group of girls that I am proud to call my friends. We are making things happen in spite of fear. In addition, I am taking strides in other professional endeavors and not letting me talk myself out of it. 

My dreams are important. To me. To my life. And to who knows who else.

Only time will tell.